Yep! unfortunately!
For me, love still remains the more desirable of the two. And I am fortunate enough to have that love in my life at the moment - nothing like a good marriage and seeing your children blossom into wonderful people B-)
In my late twenties I would've given up everything to find the right man and have beautiful children. I prayed about it and it happened :-)
I was managing financially; had invested in my own home. I invested greatly in education (and still am), then made some dumb financial moves: by taking out a credit card, and relying on my husband too much.And caring too much about what people think - and being thrown by the misbehaviour of others of the 'rich' ilk... thinking I did not want to be like them - lacking character and integrity.
I painted them all with the same brush - and subconciously developed an aversion to wanting to earn much!
After all, who am I to want love and money?
At the height of my career as a time management trainer and author (such as it was) - I made sure I made just enough, and would inadvertedly get rid of the rest by, amongst other things, creating credit card debt.
Which was a source of stress for months after I came to my senses and cut up the credit card, while refusing to take out any more debt.
I paid it all off in a lump sum from my mom's estate (what an expensive lesson!).
I've been out of debt for a while, but haven't been earning much. A source of great guilt , because I don't want to be relying on my husband, who earns well - but as he pointed out there is a limit to his earnings.
And I've been unsure of: where it's been coming from and where it's been going.I no longer feel in control.
Yet I am sitting on businesses with passive earning potential.
Ok, my book and training business, every Tom, Dick and Harry is trying to do that these days. But I know mine is unique ... but how to get it out there again, now that I've deversified slightly.Ironically that seems like the way to go, but the other business is the real deal! - the one I shied away from, because when you talk about it to people it doesn't look like much - they turn up their noses, and they think they're better than that!
But when you are in the business you don't feel good enough, because the really successful people are genearally of a high calibre - and you know whoever got there worked hard to earn it! Went through the 'rejection' and the - stuff!
So now I ask myself, if I already went through so much in the name of that business, speaking to a multitude of people - then why have I not continued doing it lately; been inactive - given up?
Having done that, and having tried various other routes, makes me realise that The Business is my primary option. The rest of my goals and dreams would be spin-offs once I get that right! Platinum is the place - my true desire. Linked to love...
I will see that word all over until I do it - in spite of the people who've tried to dissuade me; who've told me I'll never be successful; who've laughed at me.
It's better than trying out the rest of everything - knowing where I want to be, but not being able to, because others have stuffed it up so bad, because the business is a wide open business - open to the charletans, the greedy, the liars and the cheaters... the discouragers...
I'm not them, I'm me - and just looking for others like me; the business has a great plan that anyone can follow - if they dare!
It's sad, but no more sadder than life. And the path in SA looks bleaker on any other route or detour.
So I'm prepared to come out of hiding, put back on my armour - and go into battle, big time, in order to achieve the financial freedom that the business offers. Fight for the right - one more time- for my husband, for my daughters, for future generations!
I now know for sure that Love CAN buy me money! Love is a verb - not least of all which is passion, and having the COURAGE of one's convictions! If you want something bad enough you will fight for it!
So why am writing this post then, and opening up to the world (potentially) when most don't really care? To be accountable for my future! No-one can stop me but myself.I will refer to this post over and over and over again when I'm feeling a bit - timid -and remind myself why I'm doing it!
So much more to lose if I don't get back into battle and keep fighting until it's there!
Love can by me money! The capacity to love is limitless ...in that case....
I rest my case B-)
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